The Long Road and My Father's Journey

I’m traveling by airplane to Mexico. This morning I woke up at five o'clock to arrive at the Cancún airport. During my traveling, I’m thinking about my parents and siblings. I know that it has been a long time since I last saw them. I want to see the monstrous city named CDMX or Mexico City again, that I left 19 years ago and that every time I come back, I find it different. It is something like a megalopolis subdivided into micro-cities within it. I'm referring to 16 territorial demarcations called mayoralties.

 The altitude increases from north to south, although the significant height is 2,240 meters above sea level. Where I live, I am 5 meters above sea level. On this occasion, I am traveling alone without my wife and children.

 The plane is full of passengers. This is the first time I will arrive at the new Felipe Angeles International Airport. This airport is very far from my parents' home. After almost a two and a half hour flight, the airplane starts descending. I can see the valley of Mexico City through the window, almost landing, but suddenly I get a phone call. While I'm flying, I get confused and I refuse that call.

 I see that my sister was calling me. For the second time, my phone vibrates but I reject the call again and begin receiving messages on WhatsApp. The message comes from my sister Teresa. When I read her message, I was disturbed and bewildered, not believing what it said: my dad just died.

 That message shocks me. Finally, I land and look for transportation to go with my mother and siblings. In my mind, memories of my dad flood back. (I donated a kidney to my father 31 years ago, so I believe that I feel strange sensations as if I were still connected with him). I feel like something has died inside of me—a very strange feeling. 

I feel both anxiety and fear, but I try to stay calm, breathing deeply while I look out the bus window.

 I arrive and call my daughter, asking her to pick me up at the bus station. While I’m waiting, I enter a Starbucks and try to drink some water, but I feel short of breath. Suddenly, my daughter Ximena calls me. I walk over to where she is and see that she has come with someone—I assume it's her boyfriend.

 After a hug and meeting her boyfriend, I see that she is carefully observing my reactions, but I try to appear fine. I think I'm still in shock. As we walk to her car, I start feeling dizzy and struggle to breathe. Without worrying them, I ask to stop at a store to buy a Coca-Cola, thinking I might be hypoglycemic and hoping the drink will raise my blood pressure.

 In my mind, I deny the moment I'll have to face in a few minutes. Finally, I arrived but my other brothers were missing, one is living in Mississippi, and couldn't travel, but my other two are coming from Atlanta. I know this is a very difficult time for everyone.

 I arrive at the hospital and find it hard to breathe—I feel exhausted. But I have to handle this situation. The first people I see are my mother dressed in black and some relatives. Now the grief sinks in. I stand strong while we hug. When I see my mother silently crying, she tells me, "After sixty years with your father, I can't believe this would happen."

 I can imagine that after her words, she has to appear strong. And I know that despite this, she is strong and her strength fortifies me too. Her words make me feel a little more at peace.

Three days after my dad's passing, I didn’t have the energy to continue with my BYU online courses. I send my teachers emails informing them of my situation and asking for time to submit homework later in the week. After some hours, my teachers responded, accepting my request.

 I'm still depressed but against my will, I continue making an effort to complete assignments. My wife also travels to stay with me during this hard time for our family. I have to admit, a few months ago, my wife and I almost separated. All of that took a toll and overwhelmed me. But seeing her support now, I feel her love and commitment despite everything.

 After a few days, I want to give up—I can’t continue. I don’t have the focus for programming or other courses. After two weeks though, I decided to keep pushing forward. I've missed one course but will try to catch up on the others as best I can. In my mind, I already gave up, so I decide to email requesting her assistance in granting me a W (withdrawal from the course).

I decide to email requesting her assistance in granting me a withdrawal. A couple hours later, I see a response from my teacher. Reading her answer, I understand the challenges and trials ahead and realize I'm obligated to keep exerting more effort. My teacher says she can wait for me and urges me to keep trying.

So against my instincts, I start working again little by little. Two weeks pass and I'm at the same place in my courses. But by the end of the semester, I finally pass all of my classes.

 I have to rely on God's strength to get through this adversity—to never let me falter. I feel strong and capable with Him close and know that nobody can stand against me. Despite the painful moments, I learned to never give up. I didn’t know I had this kind of perseverance, but discovering this part of myself has been enlightening.

 Now, almost seven months later, I have one conclusion about my dad: Even though he only studied up to 3rd grade, he left me with many teachings. I can say without a doubt that he was a warrior in life 

 

The Language of the Heart

Looking into your eyes, strange feelings invade my mind.

A peculiar yearning swirling within, leaving clarity behind.

 confusion fills my heart all is strange and unclear,

invade me the fear and resignation!

Yet my mind fails to decipher you,

when my heart desperately calls me

Yet his language, I fail to comprehend,

I can’t understand this language filled with emotions.

I only feel vibrations within me, alerting my senses, stirring my soul,

I see your eyes, but can't fathom what's behind them, what's your true goal.

 Yeah, I want to know, but I falling down

when you return, I falling apart...

Resigned, I accepted, surrendering without a fight.

Resigned, I accept, surrendering my heart.

The truth revealed itself, an illicit affair unveiled in your chats.

and our world is torn apart.

And I can only observe helpless and forlorn,

I begin to deal with fate.

I beg to my Lord peace in my soul

Now I know, the language of the heart is a brave ally,

In the face of deceit, it stands tall, it does not lie.

Lisa Stansfield - Never, Never Gonna Give You Up

ERA - Ameno

     Dream On

Share my feelings is an adventure, like this simple song,

but it talks about me, I think that everyone got to lose and

to know how to win. We have to learn from

Everybody. This is my case, all is true, keep up trying dreaming, will real soon.

Welcome to me Personal Creed.

       Beliefs and Philosophies

     
                                 

   

Belief:  Faith is the most important thing to me because without hope, I would feel empty inside, like a donut with a hole at the center of my life. I believe faith provides the hope that keeps me going. I love our Heavenly Father and sharing scripture is a fulfilling challenge for me. I aim to passionately enlighten others by sharing my faith, which could make a difference in their lives.

 Adversity:  I believe adversity can serve as a wake-up call, breaking us out of complacency. During tough times, God wants us to learn and grow, with Him at the center of our lives. While situations may seem bleak to some, I choose to remain positive, viewing hardship as an opportunity to pursue dreams. The key is maintaining faith and perspective.

As for health, caring for our bodies is crucial. In my case, I need to lose some weight by eating nutritious foods like vegetables and fruit, exercising daily, and drinking more water. Making small, sustainable changes is the secret to success. Everyone should consider their health a priority. When we honor our bodies, it becomes easier to fulfill our life's purpose

Sex: Another significant endeavor is to cultivate love and overall well-being. Participating in this pursuit is critical because it produces endorphins, resulting in a feeling of happiness. Simultaneously, it's vital to furnish our children with accurate information. Sex is a natural phenomenon, and it's crucial to shield children from misleading details, including pornography. They can easily misconstrue the distinctions between sex and pornography, as these represent two separate concepts 

Time: I believe, we must respect the time of other persons, I believe that everyone is that owner of his time. The time is lineal succession of events, it could be short or long. the time depend of us, its is in our mind, the joy could be long or short also depend of you. We have a connection with the time is determinant to understand  to live organized.

 Spontaneity: Is improvise in differents situations, for example:  In the hard moments, sudenly I find a solution, another different situation for example bring  happyness moment, inventing a joke to someone sad, the spontaneity basically is inventing something good. 

Destiny: God have a plan for us before we came to earth, we are here to be tested and apply our skills, our gifts, our free will, recognize the good and bad. Imitate  Jesus Christ would be ideal, but we are here to be better through time, our mission is a challenge and we must polish our diamond. Every step we make has a reason, we just  need to be alert and have our eyes  wide open, because behind us is the adversary, I believe that angels guide my destiny.


Change: Is reinventing myself. First it is important to understand where my frustration and  anger come.  To give the first step, and feel the wish of change. But sometimes I need touch the bottom to change.
The paradigm for others could be to go away, but they should change of mind.
Looking through windows, I would like give one example of Laman.
Laman wanted to kill his brother Nephi, because he didn’t understand the commandments of our Heavenly Father. He rebelled to accept the recommendations from his younger brother, till Nephi could explain the message by God, Laman feels afraid of God and then he obeyed.

Humble: Is and ingredient to be successful, when I am capable to forget the pride, it is easier for me to get satisfaction of my acts. Looking through windows to me is be willing, to be humble and accept God's will. Everytime I have to make an effort to accept His will.  Finally we have a seed of Goodwill to grow. Stay away of pride and vanity, because loose my mind, and waste time in things superfluity.

 Possessions: I'm sure that temporal things have a cycle after it is garbage. 

Death: Is the next step to other stage, where everyone have a duty to do something that I don't know the argument, but I’m sure that something awaits us.

Testing: This is the first step to being loyal with God and understanding that the opposite exists (Satan). and we are going to be tempted until the end of our lives. We are tested every moment if we understand, we have a good opportunity to ask  the Holy Ghost what should we do, I remember "Job", nice example of integrity and loyalty to God 

Music: Music holds a special place in my heart; I find it to be an indispensable part of life. The profound connection I feel with music makes it unimaginable for me to envision a life without its presence. 

Education: To be free, I have to study the scriptures to know God. The education is a complement for everyone, to help us find opportunities and improve own skills.

Mentorship

T

he Power of Mentorship is in understanding that others know the way and they have another perspective, and could be possitive or give inspiration.

The trajectory of them captivated me, when I know their job, I felt like they were my old friends for a long time, they are present in my life, and I took the best part of each one, and it is like having a feedback, because they were unique and share it. It is interesting how I can get conclusions through all of these persons.

Salvador Dalí

The extravagant and extroverted Dalí

When I saw one of his painting for first time, I was amazed  at the same time I felt frightened.

I admire his creativity, he was eccentric. His challenge is to be Dalí forever.

He has a positive Affirmation: "I will be a genius, and the world will admire me. Maybe I will be despised and misunderstood, but I will be a genius, a great genius, because I am sure of it."

I have a moral from Dali :  Everything is possible if you believe it.

Edson Arantes Do Nascimento Pelé.

                                                                                                           

Is a Brazilian ex-soccer player.  Pele World Champion. 

I admire his modesty and humbleness, although he was the best player of the world. After many adversities he pursued his goal and strengthened day by day his dream.

One reason to imitate. I saw him play, and it is another reason to feel identified with him. I love the soccer, I wished to play soccer pro. I tried but later changed my mind to keep studying, so I feel good when I  see videos of talent persons like Pele, Michael Jordan, Ayrton Senna (pilot), Maradona (soccer), Messi (soccer), Ronaldo (soccer), Serena Williams (tennis). What are they made of ? They were or are the best athletes, but one responsibility over them was to win always for any personal reason. I want to win always. although If I fail, I always have something to learn from my defeat, always I win one experience.

Tuesday Lobsang Rampa is the spirit of dead Tibetan Lama (monk) who allegedly took over the body of Cyril Hoskin (1910-1981), a British-born son of a plumber who lived in Ireland in the mid-1950s and moved to Canada in the 1960s. He died in Calgary in 1981 is the pen name of an author who wrote books with occult themes. His best known work is The Third Eye, published in Britain in 1956.

When I read The Third Eye, it really impacted me. He became the best example to me.  I found out that I wanted to make a change in my life, and understood that I can attain it only with discipline, and practice everyday. I learned that to pursue a goal is to be wanted, but obviously with many difficulties, nothing is easy.

My lesson:  Was hard, that I’m a simple mortal as anyone.

and my obligation is to discover what kind of gift God gave me, when I know about it, I must help other to improve.

Nikolay Gogol,

in full Nikolay Vasilyevich Gogol
(born March 19 [March 31,
New Style], 1809, Sorochintsy, near Poltava, Ukraine, Russian Empire [now in Ukraine]—died February 21 [March 4], 1852, Moscow, Russia) Ukrainian-born Russian humorist, dramatist, and novelist.

I love his novels, like the Overcoat, with its colourful peasantry, that I enjoyed, and one reason to admire his narrative, He Inspired me to keep reading.

All these persons lived with passion and improved their skills all the time of their lives,  they have a good mood to work, and productive style life.  All of them inspired me to reflect.

Sometimes  we just   need a little push to do it, the La of Light and Art of Inquiry, appear just in the right moment, and make important decisions.

"The best example of "fight " that you've ever seen, heard or read, is with the facts of others" ...